To You

They say you fall in love with a person, but with you, with you I didn’t fall at all. I walked into love with you, it was just that easy… and it wasn’t scary at all.

It was nothing I had every experienced before.

And, let me tell you, I thought I knew what it was like to fall in love. Because, there are times when I have thought to myself: darling, you fall in love too easily, and maybe you leave a little bit of yourself with everyone you meet. My heart might be so innocent that I fall victim to the darkness that is out there – I came into contact with you, and my whole idea of the world changed.

I fell in love with the pace of how we got to know each other all over again. It took a fair bit of time to understand what was going on, but when I woke up and you were still there, something changed. This, this wasn’t something electrifying – no, this was a slow gradual process that allowed the natural transition take place.

I wasn’t addicted to the adrenaline rush that came with every text, every picture, every video, every call – the rush came from the feeling of safety that surrounded you. I wasn’t obsessed with thinking of you because, baby, you’re an open book to me. I wasn’t fixated on wanting to get together with you because, baby, there’s time for that. I wasn’t terrified to love you because you screamed the right feelings.

I fell in love with your sincerity. I was touched by the friendship you offered me, the hand you extended when you didn’t have to. You were willing to be my friend first before promising me the rest of it. It was steady. You were willing to be there for me in every possible way, regardless of the time.

I fell in love with your generosity, your selflessness. You constantly reassure me, you show me in ways words could never express. You treat me in ways I never thought I deserved but have come to understand that I do, and it’s only because it’s from you. You are my home, as I am yours. You show me that I’m enough just the way I am without the need to be someone else for you to accept me. You found me during my chaos, I found you during your journey.

I fell in love with your encouragement. You have given me the ability to be excited for everything that is happening and everything that is yet to come. You have shown me that it is okay to dream, and dream big. You have taught me that I can love hard, harder than I ever thought I would be capable of doing again.

Before I found you, I had no idea that love could be such a beautiful thing. It is being completely open, honest, and utterly content with everything that we are alone and together. It is the trust that is just there, without any questions. It is the feeling of working together on a common goal, of spending the rest of it together. It is this stupid happiness that comes along with a calm serenity that I can’t even begin to explain properly.

Anything you want to do, anything we want to do – it’s all possible.

We found each other in a time of utter chaos. This year has strung everyone along, holding the leash so tight that no one knows what the state of the world is going to be from day to day. But, even so, the light that has been found now – is a light that is so bright that nothing can stop it from shining.

You dismantled my defenses, you gave me courage.

We started a new book together, a story that is going to be filled with optimism. We will write chapters of adventure, love, wildly unexpected happenings.

Because you have redefined how I think of love, and now, now I want to write this story filled with all the happiness that you have given me. The world might not be ready for us, but damn, we are here.

Thank you for taking a chance on me, on us. Thank you for choosing me to go on this journey with you. Thank you for seeing the good in me, for believing in my strength even when I couldn’t see it myself. Thank you for being this pillar of support, the constant in my life, the light in my world.

My eyes found yours, and I drowned in the depths of your ocean. I traveled to your lips and I didn’t even know it. I was welcomed with much-needed encouragement, the peak of kisses until I am bursting with laughter, and your smile finds me promising me that you’ll never let go. Your eyes pull me into the most intimate parts of your world, and for a moment, I’m just content to stare back into your eyes. It’s in those moments of quiet simplicity did I realize how much I have grown to care for you and how incredibly lucky I am to be with you.

So very lucky…

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