Never Saw It Coming

I never saw it coming; and I know you didn’t either. I came raging into your life like a hurricane: Sudden and unexpected. I didn’t creep up on you like a gentle storm that just passes by. The path that led me to you was as unpredictable like the changing of tides.

The journey was long, let me tell you. I remember being little and seeing your face but really, I don’t remember a whole lot else. The past doesn’t really matter though. It may have helped shape who we are today, but it doesn’t define us.

The day you came into my life wasn’t anything special other than the fact it was you. That day was messy, chaotic – a damn hurricane if there ever could logically be one in the middle of the prairies. The storm clouds covered everything around me – I honestly couldn’t see the light. But, there was you, reminding me that you were there. Reminding me that it will all be okay.

It was like a tiny beam of light broke through the clouds right then and there, I could feel the truth behind your words. I could feel the weight of you from across the globe. Because whatever journey you were on, you still had the time to make it known that you had me – whatever that meant in that moment.

Blinded by the light of the brightest star in the sky, I looked into those eyes. I saw you, and just knew I had to do whatever I could to make you know – make you understand how important of a human you were. Because when we locked eyes, those ocean blues ignited something in me I thought was dead in the water. Your warmth was felt and I hadn’t even touched you. You studied my face, my mannerism. You looked into my eyes like no one ever has before, you saw me. No words needed to be spoken, there was a quiet understanding between the two of us. Everything finally made sense.

The chaos that had been swirling, calmed. It calmed because there you were. Reminding me that the hardest days were still yet to come, but even as they came, you would be there. You would be there to remind me that I would be okay, it was just another moment in time. I didn’t even need my hand in yours; all I needed was your voice over the speaker of my phone.

In the moments that have come to pass, I realised that I would do anything to protect you. I would climb the highest mountains in the worst storms to help you. I would brave the strongest currents to swim to the depths to come rescue you.

No distance is too far. No path is too long. The greatest gift I could ever receive has already been given to me.

I don’t know where this journey is going to take me, you, us. I don’t want to know because there is beauty in that. Because if the sky was about to fall, the music fades, the road ends – I still don’t want to know. The moments we live in together are more important than knowing if they will end.

No matter what happens, know that I will always be with you. I will always tell you how proud of you I am – for the big things, and for the little ones. I may not always be able to help calm the storms of your life, but I will be there by your side as you figure out how to maneuver them. I may not be able to always keep the road smooth, but I will be there to walk beside you. I may not be able to protect you from all of the pain this world will throw at you, but I will help heal that hurt.

You will never have to question it. You have unlocked places inside my heart, mind and body that I never knew existed before you. It all continues to grow with each passing day.

No matter where you are, no matter where I am; I will always be with you.

Because you feel like home.

My hope for you is this:

I hope that life continues to give you everything that you deserve. I hope that you will be inspired. I hope that you will be surprised by the turns your life takes. I hope that you allow curiosity to take the lead so that you can discover new things as you explore this world. I hope you won’t ever let your accomplishments or failures define who you truly are. I hope your dreams light the fire from within you, but won’t let you down if they take a little longer to come true. I hope you stay true to that childlike wonder I see in your eyes. I hope that you always know your worth. I hope you choose to believe in the light, in the goodness that is in this world and not fear the darkness.

Because in our short time together, you have shown me how to treasure it all. You have inspired me once again to chase my dreams. Your smile lights up my whole damn world instantly. When I look at you, I know that we can face it all – whatever life has in store for us. Because of you, I am reminded of how strong I truly am. You inspire me to be the best version of myself possible.

I will never let you down.

Ever.


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