i found a letter

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16.
A letter that brought everything back to me.
Maybe I should’ve told you sooner.
Because maybe you would know…

No matter the amount of time you are with a person doesn’t really dictate whether or not feelings happen, but the way two hearts connect – that’s another thing entirely. I believe from the moment I laid my eyes on you, I knew right then and there you would have my heart.

I never cared about the rumors, the lies or the truths of the past – your past- all I care about, all that matters is us. Us, because we are going to make history – we are going to live in every moment with each other. Honestly, you’re the every waking moment, the very beat of my heart; the one person I want to spend every waking moment with. I know this because I can’t stop smiling when I talk to you, and I get that butterfly feeling every time I see you – that huge smile across my face, yeah, you put it there.

I’m not sure how to begin to tell you how amazing you are to me or why you make the smiles on my face never-ending; all I know for certain is this: this is the one feeling all the people in the world long for, and it takes a lifetime to find but in such a short time you’ve given it to me – you have given me all your love, mine is all yours.

I’ve never known a feeling like this before; never felt a touch like yours or the safety inside your arms – you’ve made me the happiest girl, I’ve ever been. I’ve lived through some pretty bad moments, and I look to the past and realise that feeling will never come back because I have you, and you’re by far the best. You’ve given me the best 2 months of my life and I can’t wait for more to come.

It’s not a matter of how many smiles, the hours we spend together, the endless kisses but the simplicity of a single: “Hello,” or that first look of the day. I live for those; I live for anything that deals with you – you’re everything wonderful in my life, and in this world. I wouldn’t change or it up for anything.

So, take my hand, and never let it go. Don’t look back to the past, it only brings us sadness or regret. Now that we have each other, we don’t need to live for what we had, for what we did wrong; because, now it’s for what we have, days we will live together, and the days we will come to live for. Fights are what makes us stronger, and being apart makes us realise how much we love each other, and how much we can miss one another. The people who are there to try and separate us, are the ones jealous of what we have, even though, jealousy pretty much comes up in every relationship. Here, there’s no need for it, there is no other person I would rather see myself with, it never crossed my mind; even though I have no way of proving it – it will be me and you until the end.

I don’t think you will ever fully understand how you’ve touched my life and made me who I am. I don’t think you could ever know just how truly special you are; that even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star. I don’t think you could fully comprehend how you’ve made my dreams come true or how you’ve opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do. You’ve allowed me to experience something very hard to find – unconditional love exists in my body, in my soul, and in my mind. I don’t think you could ever feel all the love I have to give, and I’m sure you’ll realise you’re all I can think about. You are an amazing person, and without you, I don’t know where I’d be. Having you in my life completes and fulfills every part of me.

Happy Birthday baby. I love you. Never forget this is a never ending road with only our future ahead.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16.
It was your birthday, our love was still so new.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16, and when I found it, it all sunk in. Because as rocky as our road has been, as our storms always raged on, there was always one thing that remained true – our love, our love kept us going. At our darkest of times, all it would take was moments together to wipe away any of the hurt. At our darkest of times, all it would take was a few hours holding each other.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16 a few months ago when I thought our darkest days were coming to a halt. It allowed me to remember our earliest moments together – how innocent, how fragile, but how very present we were. It’s hard to think that as you get older, life and love become something we should hold onto even harder. We laugh, we cry, we cherish what is around us.

But we also hurt immensely, we walk on eggshells, we lose sight of what is right there. We make rash decisions, we fail to communicate, we get blinded by trauma. We mistreat, we disrespect, we fail.

But, isn’t that what makes us human in the end?

For all of our ups, we have downs.
For every triumph, we fail.

From every mistake, we grow.
From every challenge, we strengthen.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16, this letter changed everything for me. You changed everything for me. You always have, you always will. You have given me some of my proudest moments, lived through milestones together, fought tooth and nail for what we believe in. You are the strongest person I know. You are the one the rest of days belong to.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16, and when I found it, all of the goodness came rushing back in. It’s hard to remember every moment of your life spent with someone else, but when it comes rushing back, you hold on – you hold on for the ride, you never let go.

I found a letter I wrote to you when I was 16, and it felt like I was falling for the first time.


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