It has been one year. One year of talking. One year of knowing each other.
Did you realize that? Probably not.
You saw me differently, transparently. You read my stories. You listened when I thought no one was. You smile, you genuinely smiled whenever you sent me photos, I liked to think that I played a special part in that.
You stayed. You actually stayed.
No many people do.
It all started as a random conversation, a random message that turned into something special.
Do you think so too? I can only hope.
We’ve been talking for some time now, but we still only know bits and pieces. I don’t know, off by heart, when your birthday is – I’m not even sure if you know mine. I am constantly overwhelmed by figuring out what you do, where you live, where you came from. I don’t know your full name. I don’t know if you love late nights or early mornings.
But I want to.
Because for once, someone liked me for my words and not for my face.
I need you to know this: you have a way about you, about making the world seem a little less cruel. You have an air that doesn’t complicate matters around you. You know how to take a step back, evaluate the situation. That’s special.
I want to thank you for saving me when I am having a bad day. I want to thank you for not getting annoyed with me. I want to thank you for your patience. Because even if we don’t talk about much, or anything at all, the moment I see your name pop-up… instant smile. And maybe you don’t know everything about me, but I like that you want to.
I’m sorry if I don’t always make sense. I’m sorry if I take up too much of your time. I’m sorry if I occupy too much space. I’m sorry if I’m a distraction. I’m sorry if I get weird, I just don’t want you to get tired of me, I don’t want you to leave like all the rest.
I just want you to know.
I want you to know how you make me happy. How much I appreciate you. How much this means to me.
And even if I can’t come up with the right words, I want you to know I am grateful to know someone like you.
You challenge me. You make me see things differently.
So, for now thank you.
Thank you for staying, for talking to me.
Thank you for making me feel like you want me there, in your life.