You know what I would do to you if you were here right now?
I would grab you by the hand and pull you in closer with my fingertips. I would lean in, pushing my lips against yours waiting for the surprise to fade and our lips to open.
I would make you feel the electricity coming off of my body, letting my touch send you to places you have long forgotten about.
I would run my hands down your arms, feeling the tensing of your muscles as I send goosebumps down your spine.
I would break the kiss apart only to tell you how much I want this, how badly I have missed this. I want to see that look of longing on your face to tell me you feel the same way too.
I would let the rest of the world fall away to silence and surrender myself to you.
I would want you all to myself; no interruptions, no excuses. I want to feel your skin against mine.
I would want to hear the quickening of your breath, the tremble in your arms, the catching of your words.
I would kiss you in all the right places, giving you a preview of what is to come, allowing your happiness to show through.
I would dig my nails into your back, because I just can’t take it anymore – I can’t take another second without your body next to mine.
I would want you to be on the same page as me, thinking the same thoughts, reaching for my shirt – pulling it over my head, watching my hair fall down my back.
I would want you to break the silence that is surrounding us to tell me how I make you feel in this moment.
And when it’s my turn, I would look you directly in the eyes as my fingers peel your shirt off. We can become silent, allowing our minds to scream all of the things we wish our mouths would say.
I would make you mine as we become knotted together.
But that is just a fantasy. It will never become reality.
It’s my daydream.
Because in reality all I can do is casually talk to you like a friend, as if you don’t mean anything to me.
You have no idea what I would do to you. Maybe you could take a guess, maybe you can read it from the look in my eyes. Maybe you have the same thoughts, wondering if I would kiss you back if you were brave enough to take the first step.
Maybe we are just too terrified to make it into a reality.
But that’s okay.
You can live inside my dreams any day.