Thank You to All the Special Women in My Life

To all of you,

You deserve more than a day of recognition, you deserve years worth of thanks and appreciation. You deserve more than a cake with the words ‘Happy Mother’s Day’ decorated on top. You deserve the world, and so much more.

But as daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin, I would like to take the opportunity to thank each and every one of you strong, powerful women. You all did your part in raising me and I want you to know how grateful I am, from the bottom of my heart. Each of you have contributed to the person I have become and in turn, have made your own families and look at all the precious smiles you have received. Look around at the little people you have made, how proud you are of them – just imagine how they see you. I cannot thank you enough.

The sacrifice that my mother and grandma have done for me is insurmountable. There were times, I’m sure, when I left you both up at night worrying or crying. There were other times where I left you wondering about my well-being and if I was going to make it out alright. There were times where you both had late nights staying up with a crying baby or a little girl who was sick and just needed comforting. I thank you for the times that you probably had, sitting behind a closed-door crying in private because you knew I was hurting but there was no way you could help, or worse, the times I left you crying because I hurt you.

Thank you for giving me the chance to grow-up in a house that was filled with so much love it was overwhelming. Thank you for instilling in me patience, understanding, and respect. Thank you for teaching me to grow-up with compassion, with empathy, with sympathy. Thank you for allowing me to see true beauty through your eyes. 

I also want to take advantage of the fact that I know I don’t show enough appreciation to either of you; how sorry I am for things that I have done in the past and probably the things I will do in the future. I know you deserve so much more. I want you to know that I am so lucky to have you both in my life, even on your hardest days you are still there for me. I am sorry for the days when I back-talked and gave sass because I thought I knew what I was talking about, for not realizing the meaning of your words, and for always believing I knew better.

I am sorry if I ever made you feel like I was taking you for granted, but thank you for never holding that against me. Thank you for being patient with me, for allowing me to figure out who I am and giving me a chance to take every opportunity that was tossed my way. You have quietly allowed me to grow, mature, and become the woman I am today. 

Thank you for showing me the importance of being a lady, and also how to curse like a sailor. Thank you for teaching me how to give, and give some more. Thank you for showing me the importance of forgiveness and manners, especially when it comes to forgiving myself. Thank you for always being there.

I apologize for all of the times that I failed to say I Love You, and for the times that it may seem like I don’t. I apologize for the days that I took too much out of you and made your life harder. But I do love you, so much.

I love you even when we don’t talk for days or weeks. I love you even when we are arguing. I know that we both have our own opinions on things and our views are so different, but I have to show you that I do have my own voice – I am not the shy girl I used to be, and I don’t have to follow your directions all of the time. I’m trying to be myself, learn from my own mistakes – just like you taught me.

I love you even when I don’t agree with you. You’re too kind, too forgiving, too understanding, too gentle and it drives me crazy sometimes. But I understand why you are like that, how big your heart is, and how strong you are. I understand how much energy it takes out of you to make every single person around you feel like they are loved. 

I love you even when I am mad at you. Even during the times where nothing you say makes sense, nothing I say makes sense to you either. On days where I really don’t like you, I will always love you. Word hurt, especially some of yours, and I wish there were times you took a moment to think before you spoke. But I get it, I understand. Sometimes it is the things that you aren’t saying that matter most, it just takes me a minute to figure it out.

I love you even when I don’t see you. When weeks turn into months without seeing you. I miss you even if I don’t tell you.

Your hugs will always be the best hugs, the ones that warm me down to my core. I love you because of the stillness that comes with your love, and it will always be the greatest love anyone could ever give. 

I am sorry that I don’t tell you enough, I’m sorry that I forget the you need the reminder too. Mothers, grandmothers, aunts all need to be nurtured too, and that you need to be taken care of. I forget because it is something that you never ask for, and you shouldn’t have to. You are always giving and loving as if the satisfaction that you receive from that is enough, it means more than what you get back.

I love you even if you never ask for my love back in return. I love you because you are the reason I am here, the reason why I continue to thrive. So, if I ever piss you off, get too risky, too stubborn, too distant know that I still love you.

Thank you for everything and more. Thank you for being a constant in my life. Thank you for being a reminder of unconditional love.

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