An Open Letter to the Sister that I Never Had

Hello,

Remember me? Of course you do. I am your boo. I am the one that you watched over closely, the one that you protected with all that you had. I know that we have grown apart and I know that it is mostly my fault, but this is my letter to you. A letter that I could have written and sent a million times over but never had the nerve. A letter that I hope makes its way to you (I know it will because I am going to tag you in it). A letter that I hope makes you understand how much you truly mean to me.

So, here it goes.

In case you didn’t know, you inspire me. You always have. When I was younger I looked up to you with a twinkle in my eye. You were the closest thing this only child had to ever having a sibling. You still are. You are the strongest person I know – even if you are a little headstrong and fiery. Everything that you are, I wish I could be. Confident in who you are and not giving a fuck what other people think. You always encouraged me, in your own little way, to be the best version of myself that I could be. You showed me how to fight in what I believe in and to always keep my head up.

You are a constant reminder of some of the best parts of my childhood. You are also a reminder of some of the memories I have of getting picked on – always in good fun, but I never appreciated it then, I always cried. You remind me that I am special, even when others try to make me feel like I am not.  

For me, having you in my life is pretty amazing and I am glad that you will always be there for me no matter the distance and time we spend not talking. Whenever I need you, I know that you will guide me in the right direction. Know that, even though I am younger than you, I hope that whenever you need something I will be someone who you think of to go to. I hope one day that I can be that someone to another because having someone like you in my life has made everything easier.

What I love the most about you is your confidence, you never let it show when the small things trouble you. This confidence is something I admire and cherish about you. Your ability to know who you are and be yourself in any situation is something everyone should be jealous of. I cherish how this had made you who you are today; I feel like, with you, I can be myself.

I know that you have been through a lot. You have seen heartbreak, new life, adventure. It has all shaped who you are – there is still so much that I don’t know about you. What I do know, is that with each experience you have gone through, you have molded them into something that is inspiring. I don’t know your entire story, and I don’t think I ever will, but the little that I do know, I love. 

I am so grateful for you. You made me feel accepted and loved before anything else. You showed me things and helped me through hard times. You have done so much and you don’t even know it. I need you to know that. I need you to know how much I love you, how much I appreciate you. You have amazed me since day one and you keep amazing me today. 

So, thank you. Thank you for guiding me through life. Without you, I don’t know where I would be.

I love you.

Always.

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