There are times when I am left looking at myself in the mirror or sitting in front of the TV or with a book, that I think: is my heart too big?
There are so many times where I am left with a feeling that I could just explode with emotion. I feel too much, too much love. Does that mean there is something wrong with me? Not at all. I have so much love to give and only a handful of people to give it to – think how they must feel to be touched by it.
Growing up we are taught that playing hard to get is how you get people to like you; that apathy builds strength, and caring too much isn’t the thing to do. Do I agree with any of this? Not anymore. My empathy towards people, towards animals, and inanimate objects gives me the strength that I need to get by. I would rather lay my heart on the line and find out the hard way than never finding out at all. I spent too much of my life trying to cover up the feelings that I have, feelings of love, because I was too worried about the judgement that would be placed on my shoulders for being naive.
But that’s what growing up teaches you, right? That we all go through an adolescent phase when following the ‘cool’ trends is the way to go. But what if we shouldn’t have? What if we should have loved and allowed it to flow freely? Could our lives been a little happier; could they still?
There is no heart that is too small or too big that it will plop out of your chest for doing so. Being filled with love, giving that love, showing it is the greatest thing I have ever done. It is also the best thing anyone could ever receive because there are so many people who don’t have it. Even though love is one of our fundamental emotions, we encounter so many people who have a false love or a love built on fear.
There is no maximum amount of love that you can give and just because you give it doesn’t mean it is going to dry up. It doesn’t mean that there is less to be given to someone else. Giving it is just as good as receiving it. It is like getting that one present you have been waiting for. Seeing someone else light up when you give them something special is a gift that keeps on giving.
So, let them know. Let them know that they are important to you; that their kindness changed your day. Tell them their smile took the grey out of your skies and sent a warmness down to your bones. Kindness is love’s friend, after all. Use it, and use it often. If it feels awkward, you will get over it once you see the change in the person. You never know the impact of a simple smile or hug can have.
The truth is this: there is nothing wrong with loving too hard. There is nothing wrong with our hearts. Some beat just a little louder than others, their beat is a little more rhythmic. Spreading the love that you have in your chest will only make you grow into something very special.
So, go out there, love with all you have to give.
Don’t be ashamed.