There are moments in my life that I sit back and wonder if I am the only one who feels the need to tell people that I love them. If I am the only one that moves from naive feelings into honest, wholehearted feelings when I come to know someone, when they become more than just someone who I talk to every now-and-again. If I am the only one that feels like saying ‘I Love You,’ is something everyone needs to hear, that meaning it – and really meaning it – isn’t that hard when someone holds such a special place in your heart and mind. If I am the only one that thinks saying ‘I Love You,’ is an easy thing because you never know when you will lose someone or when they will lose you.
Tell me I am not the only one…
What if I told you that I don’t want to have a day where I don’t get to talk to you? Would you believe me or would you just shake it off and pretend that I didn’t just say that? Because, I can’t. I don’t like the days that pass where I don’t get to talk to you. I don’t like the days that pass and the feelings just hover like they are some magic carpet ready to take off.
What if I told you that I could get lost in your eyes because they are a colour I have never seen before? That they have a way of capturing me in a moment that never lasts long enough. That your eyes are the most beautiful things that I have ever looked into. That they make the moon jealous.
What if I told you that your smile has a way of making me weak in the knees? That it makes me lose my words and my train of thought. Your smile is the one thing that keeps me coming back, it is the one thing that holds me here when all I want to do is let go when you ignore my every word. Babe, your smile is my kryptonite, it kills me every damn time.
What if I told you that I have grown to care for you in such a short amount of time? That I admire everything that you have brought into my life. A presence that makes me happy just to see your name, a strength that keeps me believing in myself. The way you cherish family and put them first melts my heart.
What if I told you that I won’t make any more promises that I won’t keep? That, I never meant to feel this way, but I do and I am sorry I broke that promise. Would you trust in me to never break another one? Because, baby, I am going to try my hardest to keep every single one.
What if I told you that I would save the last piece of pizza for you? That it has always been the little things that mean the most to me. That your happiness was the only thing that mattered and at the end of the day, if I can make you smile, my week is made.
What if I told you that all I wanted to do was kiss you under the stars and dance in the rain? Would you make your way to me and make it happen? You could twirl and swing me, only to bring me closer. Would you take my face in your hands and kiss me like it would be our last? Would you come running just for a single moment with me?
What if I told you ‘I love you,’ would you believe me? Would you see past the iconic word and take it for what it is? That you have wiggled your way into my heart and have embedded yourself there. What would your reaction be? Would you say it back or would you thank me? Would you let yourself love me too?
What if I told you that one day I was going to hurt you? That there will be a day that I will make you cry and there would be nothing I could say to make it better? Would it stop you from loving me, would it stop you from letting me comfort you in the end? What if you were the one to hurt me? Would it break your heart that you were the one to make me cry?
What if we fought and the words that we said were real, that there was no taking them back? If the fight went far enough that some of the worst things you could say to someone were said, that it shattered your heart and mine. Would you be able to forgive me? Would I be able to forgive you?
What if you walked away and there was nothing I could do to make you come back? What if I walked away and there was nothing you could say to make me come back? What if we spend days away from each other and you come back to me, only to look at me and say you no longer feel the way you did. It isn’t the same. What if I did the same?
What if I told you that I have had these feelings for awhile now? Because I have. There isn’t a day that passes where I don’t wonder what you are doing. There isn’t a night that passes that I don’t see you in my dreams. I am missing out on the daily things that make you so damn lovable.
What if you gave me a chance to show you that I love you, would you let me in and see you?
What if I told you ‘I love you?’ Would you believe me? What would your reaction be?
Because I just did.