I Only Want the Forever Kind

If you are going to be in my life, I want you to stick around. I am not here, investing my time in this relationship, to only have you leave a short time after. I am not here to see this friendship, this relationship break apart faster than some cheap toy you buy at the dollar store. I am not here to see you come into my life and use my heart like it is some revolving door that you can keep pushing open – because, darling, I will let you. I care too deeply about the people in my life to go through more unspoken goodbyes. It is not what I am about.

I am done with the temporary. I am done trying to save relationships that are only destined to fall apart. I am done caring, wholeheartedly, about the people who just want to use me as a vacation destination. I deserve better.

I want people in my life who make forever seem not long enough. I want people in my life that make me pick up my phone and just smile for no reason. I want people in my life who inspire me and make me want to love harder. I want people I can count on because they sure as hell know that they can count on me. I want people in my life that don’t leave me wondering what went wrong.

I believe in a forever, however long that may be.

I believe in finding a big love and many little ones before you find it. I believe in best friends who can’t get enough of each other. I believe in coffee dates, in long walks, in girls nights. I believe in growing old with someone and watching our kids grow up. I believe in being there for people, through thick and thin. I believe in investing my time to make things work as long as you are willing too. I believe in not giving up. I believe that there are no dreams too big to chase.

I want you to want me just as much as I want you.

I want something that will last. Friendships, relationships, bonds. I want to invest my time in something meaningful. I want something that is all or nothing. I want to get to know you, your quirks and personality, all of the things that make you smile. I want to play 21 questions and find out everything you like. I want to be the first person you think of in the morning and the one you can’t get out of your head during the day. I want you, all of you, every single day. I want to make memories and have inside jokes. I want to make you a priority.

I want you to want me in your life.

I want to be able to look at you and say: ‘you and me… we are a forever kind of thing.’ I want to be able to run to you and tell you the best news. I want to be able to hold you and kiss you without having restrictions. I want to be able to sit and have Star Wars marathons all day long without you getting bored. I want to be able to share with you and you share with me. I want to be able to look back and reminisce over the old days.

I believe in a forever kind of thing. Do you?

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